I, ME AND MYSELF

How long will it take? How long before that empty feeling fades away? You try to go about your daily routine, Try not to think about it too much. But it keeps coming back, Sweeping over you like a wave That feeling in the pit of your stomach You suck in a big breath of air. How long am I going to feel this way? I didn't mean to break your and mine. I only wish I could go back And tell you that I want you by my side. I wish I could kiss you one more time. But I had my chance and I blew it! Now when I see you my heart hurts, And when you kiss her I cry inside myself. I'm sorry for what I did I only wish I could go back. I get your, text messages, And emails saying your sorry, But when I saw you with that girl, My heart began to rip, You looked at me, And started seeing, Tears run down my face। Shattered heart forced to heal as greatness unveils thine soul. Hope whispered in the distance, to recover thine lost love. This night brings tender passing, Healing thine soul with glori...

आज उनकी याद में, आंसू भी मीठे लगते हैं, वोह एक वक़्त था जब, मुस्कुराते भी थे हम…॥ आज सिर्फ इंतज़ार है, उनकी इजाज़त का हमें, वोह एक वक़्त था जब, हक से मिलने जाते थे हम…॥ आज हमारे आँसू, उनको पिघलाते नहीं, वोह एक वक़्त था जब, गले लगाए जाते थे हम…॥ आज हम दुःख का एक जरिया सा बन के रह गए, वोह एक वक़्त था जब, उनको भी हंसाते थे हम…॥ आज हमारी बात का सच भी नज़र आता नहीं?? वोह एक वक़्त था जब, एक मिसाल बताये जाते थे हम…॥ वक़्त बदल गया, सब छीन सा गया लगता है, वोह एक वक़्त था जब, हालात ठुकराते थे हम…… उनकी चाहत से ही दिल यह इंसान हो गया, वोह एक वक़्त था जब, चट्टान कहलाते थे हम…… जिसने हमको जीने का मतलब सिखा दिया, वोह एक वक़्त था जब, उनको भी सिखाते थे हम…॥ क्या करें के जो उनका, साथ फिर से मिल सके, काश के उनको रुला सकते, तो मर के दिखा सकते थे हम ॥ ---------------------------------------------------------------------- " आंसू जो बह रहे हैं इन्हें बहने दो ! यह कह रहे हैं दिल की बात, कहने दो ! बहुत बावफा हो तुम, यह हम को है मालूम , तुम अपनी वफ़ा की बात, अपनी तक ही रहने दो! " --------------------...

I'm like this I was born like this, and this can't be changed When I want to laugh, I just burst out laughing When I feel sad, I just cry my heart out I like to learn and cheers others, while made peace with people around me If God ask me why I served Him, I'll answer "cause You loved me in the 1st place." Lots of things that people said on me, but I won't care cause they're not me, How come they'd understand me I'd like to be myself, cause it makes me feel alive and realize how precious life is I'm like this I was born like this, and this can't be changed

--------------------------------------- Do you know, do you know Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away? Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed? If birds flying south are a sign of changes. At least you can predict this every year. Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly I can’t get it to speak. Maybe finding all the things it took to save us I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me. Look in your eyes to see something about me I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give. Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away? Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed? How can I love you How can I love you How I can love you . . . . If you just don’t talk to me, honey. I flow through my actthe question is he needed and decide the entire woman I can ever be. Looking at the last 3 years like ...

You're smiling, like a simple rose but hatered is too hard to hide its too clear that you cant stand to lose or to see that im safe inside i wont cry this time when i see you die or freeze in disbelief i know that this will hurt but i will breathe out in releifive had it, from the pain im in its getting darker but i wont let you win or watch you play my mind again its getting darker i wont give in In the beginning I had it all figured out I didn't think there was anything to worry about Blinded by bliss I couldn't see the road ahead One wrong move and my hope was dead I didn't realize what I was doing at all I couldn't see what I was doing would bring about my downfall Then I found myself on the ground all of a sudden And for what? Nothin'.

------------------------------------ Whatever appears to leave us actually does not leave. Whatever appears to stay with us actually does not stay. Nothing remains. Everything is a mystery of constant gain and loss.

If I had a shiny gun, I could have a world of fun Speeding bullets through the brains Of the folk who give me pains. *** Or had I some poison gas, I could make the moments pass Bumping off a number of People whom I do not love. *** Like a song trapped in a music box, or a bird in a cage, like a brook condemned to a dam, my soul dreamt of an escape. *** Somewhere beyond my inner walls, Somewhere beyond must be a gate! I searched deeper and deeper into my soul, only to find the things I really loathed; There must be something more than this empty glass, something more than this broken heart. *** The pain of frustration grew, like a giant reservoir; Disappointments from all directions came pouring in. Inspired frustration, divinely appointed, you can choose your own roads, but not where they will end. The road most traveled, is paved with self; Turn your eyes in, it will lead you to hell. *** You can play games, pretend that it does not hurt. But you can't stop Him (I mean God) from ...

Understanding others is one of the hardest things to do because most of us assume that they are just like us, or even worse, we act as if they have no feelings. The first thing that I find is important in understanding others is to understand the basics of all people. You've probably met many different types of people, the kinds that almost bubble over in their enthusiasm and the kinds that seem to be locked inside of a robot, but both of them still are alike. No matter how someone looks or acts on the outside, inside they have an abundance of feelings. One other way that can help you relate to others is to be aware of the differences in people. This is where personality comes in. Many people like to make decisions based on facts and others go more on their feelings, some are more "open" then others. One person will need to have order in everything they do and another would hate to have a life-style set down with rules. Even though there are these differences, that does...

------------------------------------------- Alone in the woods I felt The bitter hostility of the sky and the trees Nature has taught her creatures to hate Man that fusses and fumes Unquiet man So rises the wrath of Nature's creatures At man So paints the face of Nature a violent green. *** Nature is sick at man Sick at his fuss and fume Sick at his agonies Sick at his gaudy mind that drives his body ever more quickly more and more in the wrong direction. *** I choose the path that's leading down into fall He goes with me, But I can see he's refusing "Why would you choose a road you can't control?" He knows the answer, But I remain so confusing *** And now we stand on a brink of our treasure Raven wall, smooth and mighty, rises between And feeling of calmness, which words cannot measure Dulls the longing to pass, which is striking and keen.

Do you love me? Oh do you love me? I say so Do you need me oh do you need me God I hope I get this feeling deep inside That somewhere somehow you passed me by I can't put my finger on it but The more that I see you the more that I know Everywhere you go is everywhere I've been You finish all my sentences before they begin And I know that look in your eyes It's like I've seen you before about a million times In another life, in another life maybe, in another life you are going to be mine You make me feel so Beautiful It doesn't matter No it never matters if we're out or home We can make hours into years Wherever you go you're always here It's like I've known you from before But I'm just so happy you walked through my door I'm breathing you in I'm breathing you out You're all around me No matter what we do I want to spend my life with you Only you Do you love me oh do you love me Say you love me oh say you love me And I know that look...

To me a true friend is someone you can lean on when you need support, someone that will catch you when you're unsteady. To me a true friend is here to help you with a problem, if they know how to solve it. To me a true friend is a person that makes you smile without even trying, that makes you cry but with happiness. To me a true friend is someone you can see when they're not really next to you. To me a true friend is one that knows what to say, when you are merely speechless and stands by you in the good and bad times, is rich in their companionship

How do you react when you get a letter from your pen friend? You smile and say, 'That's nice.' Then you open it, read it, maybe write a letter back, and wait for the next reply. Well lets back up a moment, shall we? Like any girls I was in an age, To make new friends… …A friend to be honest with me… Desperate I was… …ShOoTiNg hIgH…rUnNiNg WiLd… Then, one night I entered the net Innocent girl I was, Just looking around until I found you around… You're a stranger and I let you in my heart What spell did you cast on me to make into yours! I ask that question to myself often and Neither do I have the answer. Your so unique and yourself That's what I like about you. I treasure the sweet thoughts you daily send And each time you do, You make my heart beat loud and clear This friendship like ours, Its rare and so much different, And… I'm sure our friendship is true and will remain solid For many days to come… At times like this I really like to say I would like to tha...

The most important thing to a writer isn’t the paper or how she thinks or what she thinks about, it’s her pen, because without it she would have nothing to write with. Yes you can express your self in other ways, but what’s better than being able to write? I was bad at writing; I tried to make the poems rhyme and all that more “normal” stuff poems do. It wasn’t until later that I found out that I was the one holding the pen that I could change the way I wrote my poems. At first it was hard, and then it got easier as I went along. I just held the pen over a blank piece of paper and everything I felt: anger, resentment, affection, and love, poured out onto the paper. I wrote poems about little things like a piece of paper rolling around on the cement and about the more serious things that affected me. There are three sides of the pen. One side was that it was a vent, if someone was aggravating me or if I just felt like crying I wrote a poem, one after another. I loved the freedom of bei...

Just because these people are bad themselves... doesn't always justify the evil actions you take... however morally wrong it may have been. You look deep into your soul. Can't find any good? Your hate is consuming you. Just dig a little bit deeper. I'm sure you will find that you own a heart of gold. Maybe all the evil things were out of kindness. They say it's not alright to judge, but you took it upon yourself anyway. A guy hit some girl so you hit him back. Let's dig a little bit deeper. Someone you know gets extremely drunk grabs his keys and starts his car. So you yank him out, and get arrested. Maybe *YOU* saved someone's life. All those times you've sacrificed trying to help so many others. Why can't you remember the good things? I mean you're the good person after all.

OH, when I was in love with you, Then I was clean and brave, And miles around the wonder grew How well did I behave. And now the fancy passes by, And nothing will remain, And miles around they’ll say that I am quite myself again.

_______________________________ From a friend to a stranger How's your life In your current situation Did they hold you hostage Did they tell you lies Just to add to your frustration Oh, my heart *** So you drown the whole day in your troubled heart On the road to change your life Not to give it all away But to sing your song 'Cause in the end that's where you arrive *** Oh, my heart it breaks me When I hear them calling me Oh, to see inside myself A guy can see that no one else could ever know The way we'd end up please *** So, from a friend to a stranger How's your life In your current situation Wish you happiness and freedom And I wish you life When you reach your destination Your destination Your destination.

(Its one of my fav song.) Who can say where the road goes, Where the day flows, only time? And who can say if your love grows, As your heart chose, only time? Who can say why your heart sights, As your live flies, only time? And who can say why your heart cries when your love lies, only time? Who can say when the roads meet, That love might be , in your heart? and who can say when the day sleeps, and the night keeps all your heart? Night keeps all your heart..... Who can say if your love groves, As your heart chose, only time? And who can say where the road goes Where the day flows, only time? Who knows? Only time. Who knows? Only time.

____________________________ When only darkness remains Through and unexpected lens A light shining faint Beckons us in Reaching we touch A new friendship begins Hope seeking hope We risk our trust again

I never knew being so imperfect could have its disadvantages. Last time I checked people were still taking the most advantages. I've come to realize that maybe it's not me but this place that surrounds me. I haven't yet realized. However how a *blind man* could see? *Bad luck* seems to follow me wherever I may go. They told me to not worry, "just go with the flow". Life has already taken my past; the road I wanted to travel. Can I still change things? Is this possible to fathom? It seems the things I want I can never have and the things I don't want are always up for grabs. Certainly I couldn't have been cursed with such servitude as this. My mind numbs with the pain of again being one day without this certain blissful happiness. Changing times they feel nor hear no rhymes. To just one day feel the feeling everyone else feels would undoubtedly cure me of this cursed loneliness and inner. Shivering quick, candle on a stick, once too fast no longer quick. I...

If the one you love in your heart has to go, just remember this, they are not gone" they are right there in your heart, and maybe standing right next to you, holding you. I'm Beside You" I'll be there before I go". If i ever leave this world of Beauty, if you look around and I'm gone , I havn't left yet cause i'm beside you, I couldn't leave without seeing you for awhile , I couldn't leave without telling you thank you,and some how talking to you a while , Aww its not scary and its not a good time to feel sad, I'd just came back to tell you thank you for all you've done for me , its not gonna be soon this goodbye, maybe along long time away, hey maybe, but in case you wake to see me not here, I Just ask you to smile and remmber, I'm not gone just yet, I'm gonna visit with you for a little while, Then i'll go and wait for you up in a Golden city,And hope and wonder, So you see, Its really a wish , its not a sad thought, its...

Sand between my toes wind in my hair, are you there? Heart flutters birds soar, there’s the door! My agony is washed away by the punishment of pounding waves. Walking alone on this desolate beach catharsis achieved, lonely no more. Cleansed by the foam under my feet and kissed on the cheek by the blistering sun I am at peace once again.

So quiet and calm So peaceful yet strange A sense of fear and excitement I walk on Spirits and whispers Wind in the leaves Trees bending down I walk on Turns and steps Rivers and streams Leaves float slowly I walk on Blended colors Yellow, red, and green Surrounded by their painting I walk on A sense of tranquility A sense of self Away from the world Here I stay

Innocence stolen without my permission Innocence gone without my submission Innocence lost through another's plan Innocence no longer for another man Innocence turned to hatred and fear Innocence gone, no man can come near Innocence taken from a little girls heart Innocence replaced by mistrust, you thought you were smart Innocence disappears like dew in the sun Innocence faded before it's begun Innocence obscured like a cloud over the moon Innocence ripped away too soon

In the corners of your mind And the core of your design, In the pout of your lips And the sway of your hips, You are a forbidden dream- You are not what you seem. A lie in the making A heart in the breaking A kiss on the cheek A sigh so sweet You are a forbidden dream- You are not what you seem. In the flip of your hair And the depth of your stare In the shiver down your spine And the core of your design You are a forbidden dream- You are not what you seem. A cry in the waking A soul for the taking A caress of the hand A voiceless demand You are a forbidden dream- You are not what you seem. *****

For years I heard a promising voice, More than a figment of my imagination, My mind’s magnificent creation, There was hope in the voice, That some day, We’d breathe the same air, Share the same silence, Exchange more than a smile, Create a marriage, Between Fantasy And Reality.