Always and Forever

Always and forever,

I just want you to know.

I will always be there for you,

Know matter how far you go.

***

You can travel by the sea,

You can travel in the air.

By camel across the desert,

I will always be there.

***

Your knowledge astounds me,

I'm desperate to learn.

Take me to your places,

This time its your turn.

***

I will support your dreams and wishes,

Help them to come true.

I would walk along broken glass,

Just to be with you.

***

You are the sun in the sky,

A fish in the sea,

A song bird singing,

A big part of me.

***

I want you to know that i love you,

You will forever be in my heart.

You bless my live with so much pleasure,

Without you I'd fall apart.

Two hearts, One love

I was born a dreamer

Seemed like every day

My mind came up with something new

But this time it's my heart

With a dream that's here to stay

There's a chance this one might come true

***

I could see me being with you

For the rest of my life

Two hearts, One love

And I could see you loving me too

Sure would be nice

Two hearts, One love, That's us

***

I can see my lucky stars when I gaze into your eyes

Twilight shadows hold as tenderly

It's so easy to imagine

You here by my side

As I turn out the lights and fall asleep

***

I could see me being with you

For the rest of my life

Two hearts, One love

And I could see you lovin me too

Sure would be nice

Two hearts, One love, That's us

A perfect pair

I’m glad I have a friend like you.
I’m so glad you’re here.
I can tell you anything at all,
That’s why I hold you dear.
I found a place to escape,
It’s safe and warm inside.
It’s in your loving arms of friendship,
the best place for me to hide.
We are best friends,
The perfect pair!
We never fight,
we always share.
Of all the friends that I have,
There is one thing that I know.
You’re the best, and that’s a fact,
‘Cause I know you’ll never go.
When I’m sad and lonely,
I can count on you to be there.
Because I know you love me,
and because I know you care.

He mends me!!!

Look at me I'm not the girl I used to be

When he smiles at me

I live the light I used to see

There he goes and I know

On my own

I'm not whole
Can't believe

he can't see

That he's taken the best part of me
I'm half a girl with half a heart

With nothing left to tear apart

Half of me is walking 'round

The other half is on the ground

He mends me
What's to see I had it all in front of me

It's all on me

All in the name of vanity
There he goes and I know

On my own

I'm not whole
Can't believe he can't see

That he's taken the best part of me
I'm half a girl with half a heart

With nothing left to tear apart

Half of me is walking 'round

The other half is on the groundHe mends me
Tell me where I am

nothing else can replace him

how do i go on the way I am
I'm half a girl with half a heart

With nothing left to tear apart

Half of me is walking 'round

The other half is on the ground

He mends me.

Forever

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If every word I said

could make you laugh

Ooh, I'd talk forever

together my love

I asked the sky just what we had

it showed forever

together my love

If the song I sing to you

could fill your heart with joy

I'd sing forever

together my love

forever, forever

I've been so happy loving you

together my love

Let the love I have for you live in your heart

And be forever

together my love

Forever, forever

I've been so happy loving you

If every word I said could make you laugh

I'd talk forever

Forever, forever

I'll been so happy loving you

(Another nice song)

Secret heart

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Secret heart

What are you made of

What are you so afraid of

Could it be

Three simple words

Or the fear of being overheard

What's wrong

Let em' in on your secret heart

Secret Heart

Why so mysterious

Why so sacred

Why so serious

Maybe you're

Just acting tough

Maybe you're just not man enough

What's wrong

Let em' in on your secret heart

This very secret

That you're trying to conceal

Is the very same one

That You're dying to reveal

Go tell him how you feel

Secret heart come out and share it

This loneliness, few can bear it

Could it have something to do with

Admitting that you just can't go through it alone?

Let em' in on your secret heart

This very secret

That you're trying to conceal

Is the very same one

That you're dying to reveal

Go tell him how you feel

This very secret heart

Missing my friend

I truly believe we all have one soulmate and very few are fortunate enough to ever make that connection. I met mine eighteen years too late. Ultimately, we lacked the courage to upset so many other lives and we parted painfully. Perhaps it was a brave decision rather than a cowardly one. I know most people will think it was the “right” one. But it has left a huge gap in my life which I cannot see my way past.

Heartbroken, I grieved for more than a year. I watched while he met and commited to someone who was free. Even now, more than a week since he last made contact, I nurse an insane hope that he will renew our relationship. Insane to wish myself back in that impossible situation in which we found ourselves.

I found an inner strength and I am no longer the dependent person who was once commited to him. He, on the other hand, has never grown up or learned to communicate on an intimate level. When we talk, which is rare, it’s about school, diary dates, practical matters. We veer away from anything that would mean engaging at a deeper level and live in a vacuum of emotional sterility.

I fill every moment with work or activities so that I don’t have to face the crisis in my life. I’m starved of personal space at home because he is always there, and dread being awake when he comes into my dreams. Every night I cry. Worst of all, I carry a deep anger directed largely at him because my life hasn’t worked out the way I wanted it to. It’s not a nice feeling and doesn’t make me feel good about myself.

I am terrified about what will happen next in my life when it will be my time to get married and become someone’s wife. Who will want me then? I’m too scared and too guilty to do anything to jeopardise the status quo. He was not a bad person. None of this is his fault. My parents and sis are confident little people who adore me. Who am I to upset their world?

On the other hand, am I selfish to need reassurance that I am more than just a provider, a daughter, a sister, or a friend? I don’t think so. A true partnership is when one’s emotional needs are subsumed by love, whatever the circumstances. I miss him.

Do you know???

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Do you know, do you know

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

If birds flying south are a sign of changes. At least you can predict this every year. Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly I can’t get it to speak. Maybe finding all the things it took to save us I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me. Look in your eyes to see something about me I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

How can I love you How can I love you How I can love you . . . .

If you just don’t talk to me, honey.

I flow through my actthe question is he needed

and decide the entire woman I can ever be. Looking at the last 3 years like I did, I could never see us ending like this. Seeing your face no more on my pillow is a scene that’s never happened to me. But after this episode I don’t see, you could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know, do you know, do you know….

Frustration

If I had a shiny gun,
I could have a world of fun
Speeding bullets through the brains
Of the folk who give me pains.
***
Or had I some poison gas,
I could make the moments pass
Bumping off a number of
People whom I do not love.
***

Like a song trapped in a music box,

or a bird in a cage,

like a brook condemned to a dam,
my soul dreamt of an escape.

***

Somewhere beyond my inner walls,

Somewhere beyond must be a gate!
I searched deeper and deeper into my soul,

only to find the things I really loathed;

There must be something more than this empty glass,

something more than this broken heart.

***

The pain of frustration grew, like a giant reservoir;

Disappointments from all directions came pouring in.

Inspired frustration, divinely appointed,

you can choose your own roads,

but not where they will end.

The road most traveled,

is paved with self;

Turn your eyes in, it will lead you to hell.

***

You can play games,

pretend that it does not hurt.

But you can't stop Him (I mean God) from telling you:

"For something better I created you"